Kiss You Goodbye

I can't sleep.

So I've decided to come here and after thinking for a short while,
I think it's time to end this blog.

Yes, I'm scuttling this blog.
Years of memories.
Years of joy and pain.

With friends, family and lovers.

I shall start a new one to replace this, but I might make it private.

Access to only me, myself and I.
Or maybe a few selected guest.

Shall try to add self taken photos to every post. 

Need to catch up on my photography skills after leaving it to rot since 2010.

"Thus I shall seal you away,

into the oblivion,

never to rise,

never to harm,

never to cry.

With a Kiss Goodbye,

dearest memories,

of times so happy,

of times so painful,

sleep - till the end of time."

You.

Seriously? Look at you.

Pathetic.

Fat.
Useless.
Weak.

Idiot.

Screw up.

Failure.
Weird.
Sick.

Awkward.

Just how long are you going to let these words run through your mind every single night?
Isn't it enough?

"Yes, I had enough. But when I kept telling myself to gather my bits and pieces back, it ain't working."

Then what? Give up? Let it ruin your life?
Christmas is fast approaching. Are you going to let down the people who trust you again?

Are you going to just let it go and run away?

Please get your act together. Don't let failures and insult get the better of you.
You are way stronger than that.
You weren't like this.

"I've changed. Changed for the worse."

Don't give me that. Come on. Pull yourself up.
Whatever happened to the code of conduct?
To your code of Chivalry?
To your code of Honor?

You. Yes YOU.
WAKE UP.
WAKE UP BECAUSE NOW, YOU AIN'T YOU!