Tell me what should I do?

If there is a God, or even a Devil,
please tell me what can I do and what should I do.

Was I wrong?
Wrong that Nigel is the Mr.Right for her?

I guess I was really wrong.

So dear God & Devil, I know I am very confuse...
I am confuse as to why, she can never be happy with the guy she wanted to love?

I know at least, that for my part, I am to be blame.
I should not resort to lies as a way to form a bond.
I have been a pathetic boyfriend for her.

But at least, I really tried and---
...
...
I shall not continue.

At least, she seem to have made up with him and they seem to be at peace again.
I shall keep my intentions hidden.
Well, dear God,
If you ever exist, please bless her with fortune and happiness that she always wanted.

And yes, I can't deny it.
I've moved on, but my feelings won't change until she gains her true happiness.
Neither will I get into another relationship,
nor I accept Love back into my life.
Not till the day,
my last romance gains her true happiness.

For now, Gary.
Look forward and stop backtracking. You've been backtracking too much.
No matter how tough it is to walk forward, you have to.
I am begging you, don't stop, don't turn back.
Just move forward...