Day 3 of Chalet.

It's day 3 and YES SADLY, we didn't really do anything other than rotting and lazing around. HAHAHA!!!

I can't believe I waited for days to post this. The Internet is giving problems by refusing my daily dosage of anime and manga, and even not allowing me to see my own blog and e-mail!

And yes, 5 more days to go, and I will be saying good-bye to this world as 2 years of my life will be spent in the Republic of Singapore Navy. 


Go in fat, come out sexy, that's what I wanted! We shall see how it goes. LOL!!!

Day 2 of Chalet.

It's day 2 of chalet.
Like I said, we went to Universal Studio Singapore, but we didn't enter...
By the time everyone gotten ready, it's already 1300hrs.
By the time Kenji's and Adelia's friends confirm they can't give us a discount to enter, it's already 1430hrs.

We then decided to head over to Vivo to watch movie. Sadly, there isn't a movie that can fit my timing, so they bought their tickets without me as I need to leave by 1600hrs to meet Spidey at East Coast Lagoon Village, the place in East Coast Park that sell lots and lots of seafood!

But before I leave, we decided to slack at Pacific Coffee. At our time there, I took some pictures, using the two couples there as models! Credits goes to Adelia for lending me her DSLR and the models' cooperation! Also, credits goes to your's truly for the magnificent pictures~!

Ellynor & Nelson - The Sweet Couple~

Adelia & Kenji - The Romantic Duo~

Yup Yup! Nice right? :D

I left at about 1630hrs since Spidey smsed me they might be late. I took a cab down and to my dismay, I am the only one who arrived, still on time - 1700hrs sharp.

NO ONE'S HERE AND I WAITED FOR ABOUT 1HR THEN SPIDEY CAME WITH PHYLLO. ;_;

Yeah, we had some good light dishes over there first then came Hong Wei, arriving approximately 45mins later. When Phyllo left, Sherwyne arrived. And that's where we had our second light dishes. At about 2045hrs, Wen Jie, Kenneth, and Eugene arrive! THEY TAKE SO BLOODY LONG!!!!! Then at 2105hrs, the Boss arrived. LOL.

They started eating their dinner. Me and Spidey were really too full to continue but clams doesn't really fill our tummy so we just goes on eating anyway. :3

Went to Bedok Cash Studio to sing Karaoke! Sang some old english songs, not forgetting some chinese songs! Never touch on Japanese songs, since I did not prepare any lyrics with me.

Frankly speaking, I don't know about others but I prefer to keep quiet and listen to the one singing. To me, this is a form of respect for the singer. I shall not name names, but if you're there to play Pokemon, then keep the volume down and respect the singers or if you can't do that, get out of the room and play. Also, when someone is singing, YOU DON'T SING ALONG AT THE TOP OF THE VOICE, to the point you even cancel out the mic's volume. Even if you insist on singing along, keep it down to only you can hear. Some songs are meant to be sang alone, if you can't even understand and respect this, why should I respect you when you obviously show you can't respect me? 

If you're reading this, please take this time and reflect upon your actions. You have allowed your pride to scar this friendship between me and you, and don't expect me to forgive you just so easily. You have been behaving like a real jerk ever since you got so into those darn websites and yes, I am being open-minded to the point that seriously, it's sickening to see you so obsess with that.

Tried to help, but apparently obsession is a very powerful thing, the more I help, the more strain it applies on this friendship. Some bonds, once damaged, cannot be repaired and now that you have damage our friendship so badly, it's high time I let you fall and not bother by you. I gain nothing from helping you, so you're on your own. I can't be bothered anymore.

We sang till about 3pm, where we split ways and I took a cab back to Sentosa.
When I reached the doorstep, I called Nelson's phone and he opened the door for me. By this time, everyone's asleep. LOL. So without further ado, I jump to the bed that was available and slept.

Will update the day 3 tomorrow. For now, I wish to sleep. :D
Nights~

3 days of fun, peace, and joy.

It's a great sunny Friday morning. Yes, I woke up at 10am. Why?
I have a chalet to go~! With my old buddies Nelson, Gordon, Kenji, Darren! Ellynor(Nelson's GF), Adelia(Kenji's GF) and KK(Ellynor's godbro) were also attending!


The bus trip to Vivo City from my house was very peaceful, so peaceful that I almost fell asleep en-route there. When I arrived, the time from my watch shows I'm an hour early. We're suppose to meet at 1330hrs, but I came an hour earlier because I wanted to get some money from a cheque that I fail to cash-in for 2 months. LOL!


30mins passed in DBS Bank at Harbourfront center. Finally gotten some money at hand, so I went off to the meeting place. Unsurprising, Gordon had already arrived and was waiting for the rest. After 30mins of wait, we called them and ask where are they. Ellynor and Adelia, who told us to meet at 1330hrs, said they just reached Orchard and was going to collect something!

So poor Gordon and I went ahead and walk around Vivo to kill time. When it's 1400hrs, Nelson arrived. At 1430hrs, the two ladies finally arrived. LOL! So 1hr was spent waiting. What a way to start an outing! LOL!!!


We started window shopping for awhile, then have our breakfast at... I can't remember. I think we just went to Starbucks and get some drinks that's all. We resume window-shopping, cracking jokes and silly nonsenses until it's time for us to check-in into the Costa Sands resort(NTUC) at Siloso beach, Sentosa.


We cab in, because it's cheaper than taking the monorail, which is $3 for EACH HEAD so yeah. Our driver was blur, so Me, Gordon and Nelson ended up at Beach Station(the monorail) of Sentosa instead of the place we're heading. We alighted and head for the free tram towards Siloso beach instead! When we reach, all of us were simply disappointed. The room is too small to house 7 people!!!


Drop our luggage and slack in the room for a short while before heading out to buy breakfast for tomorrow! Head out and buy our breakfast for tmr, then eat dinner(I think... Can't remember!).


Well, night came and Kenji and Darren join us, have dinner at Sushi-Tei and went out of Vivo by the harbour to catch a Chinese Junk leaving the harbour! :D

I took some pictures of it using Adelia's DSLR. Historically, the ship's overall design was a Chinese Junk(in case you dunno, a Junk is a ship). It was modified with a modern ship engine and bridge, with radar equipments. The ship flies the flag of Russia, and onboard the ship are many sailors, including some of our own poly students from SP(they are wearing SP clothes). Stay around till they left our sight! Went back to the small room we booked and slack our time off till 0230hrs then sleep.

But I couldn't sleep. I was sleeping beside Gordon and he was snoring like a giant. When he stop snoring, Kenji and Nelson started snoring. When both stop snoring, Gordon resumes, even louder! How to sleep? ;_;

I stayed up the whole time and to my dismay, I saw something move outside the window. I know what I saw, so I just look away from the window and kept quiet listening to my Ipod Shuffle. Woke everyone up at 0700hrs, and everyone slowly take their time to wash-up. Namely Gordon and Kenji, they took forever to shower!!! LOL!!!


Went to Universal Studio Singapore... Or wanted to... I shall update this post next time, for now, I am tired. Shall blog tmr! Later~!

The moment I look back.

Was simply slacking around in my room as usual(couldn't move thanks to a stupid blister. Burst but won't heal.) doing my stuffs(watching videos and playing games) and all of a sudden, I kinda hear someone's voice.

That's when I simply stop everything and somehow, just started deep-thinking.

Yes, sadly, I went too far, this time.
I begin to think about my very first relationship, on what shattered it and all. Strangely enough, I had enough courage to deliver full left hook on someone's left cheek but didn't even dare to hold my girlfriend's hand. Some scenes were blur, probably because I couldn't remember much. But I remember when she sent me the necklace I bought for her and wants to break up with me, I simply let her go, asking her to keep the necklace since it's already her's.

Then, my second relationship, on how did it happened. She was someone's boyfriend a week ago and then all of a sudden, I find myself holding her hands walking down the moonlit path along the reservoir, where my first kiss was stolen by her. Yes, she took action first and was the first girl I held hands with. Somehow, one way or another, it gotten to the point where her parents called me and scream at me. Still can remember I am shouting back angrily because I wasn't in the wrong. Broke up because she wanted to. I couldn't hold back my tears, and they simply rolls off my cheek as I quietly stood on the train home.

Third relationship, hell. I lost her to Miyabi/Miyavi/whatever his name is. A Jap Trash singer. His screamo songs and rock can't beat Gazette and Led Zeppelin so yeah. Nothing much worth talking about.

....

....

And it just ended there. Don't ask me why, I don't know... Probably got disturbed by my mum who always intrudes my room despite me locking it. When I am lost in thoughts, I lost my sense of surrounding as well... And that's fucking bad. I'll probably die on the frontlines of the battlefield.

Haiz, why am I talking about this? It's retarded. Relationships always work for others and never works for me. Hell, I even got a couple together and now they are happily married with a cute baby boy! *prays you two don't divorce*

It's not my time yet. I know that very well. But I know myself... If I start to get too serious in my work, I will be such workaholic that even if a bomb explodes at my workplace, I would still want to finish my work. I probably won't even want to have a girlfriend by then because my trust won't be there knowing most girls at that time would simply attach themselves to guys with money.

Can't risk it. I have a hatred for materialistic girls. Don't ask why but know this - They are the kind who I won't hesitate to slap/punch/kick/whatever them real hard. Don't play with my feelings.

That's all for today~

Tired... *yawns*

21 days is all that remains

21 more days of freedom.
21 more days left to do whatever I wanted.
21 more days to train.
21 more days of good food to eat.
21 more days till enlistment.


I can't wait. 
National Service is the time where I would just downright feel like I am the richest man on  the Universe(because I believe in aliens!). 
It's the time where I am paid to eat and train.
It's the time where I'll get to meet different people from different walks of life.
It's the time where I'll definitely make some friends, or enemies.
It's the time where I get to prove my mettle.
But most importantly...
It's the time where I won't need to bother a single thing about the world.


Life in the Navy(army for most) will be a breeze other than training time. Those days I've been running, I have completely neglected strength training. I need to start training on my strength if I were to survive through BMT.


I know they will grind me till I become Iron man, but still. I lack some basics. I need to get them right again.


Well, all in all, I simply just can't wait for the day to arrive.
Most boys say it's a waste of time, others simply dread NS.
They can go in a boy and out a boy for all I care, but I am definitely going in a boy and out a man!


This month alone, I had many dear friends whom loved ones kicked the bucket.
No amount of words can ease their pain.
For some reason, I just feel like writing this.


====Falling Star====
Another falling star,
Another life exhausted.


A sorrowful ballad,
A river of tears.
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I hope nothing happens to any of my loved ones.
Especially you, and you know who you are.
I pray to the universe that you'll be safe and happy everyday.
And it seems my prayers were answered. :)
All shall thanks the almighty alien~!!!


That's all for today. I need to sleep.
Must rest well for Gekiken demostration and booth for Chingay later.
Can't afford to fall off the 4m by 4m stage.
Seriously... That's too small for a spearman like me! I'll just have to make do then.

Pride issues?

I should be sleeping but I can't sleep. Tomorrow there's my Basic Theory Evaluation. But right now, I just need to rawr abit. There might be a beautiful strings of vulgarities during rawring so readers please be advised, stay away if you do not wish to get radiated.


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Sometimes, when I talk to some of the closest friends I have, things do get really sour for me.
Seriously? When you guys are down, all I ever wanted to do for you guys were to just cheer you up and behold the ultimate stupidity - I ain't given a chance because I am younger than you guys.


WHY THE FUCK SO?
Pride issues? Or was it simply abandonment issues?

For Christ's/Buddha's/Allah's sake, just because you guys are more intelligent and been through more things doesn't mean you been through everything nor does it mean you know everything. Sometimes, I'll close my right eye on such issues because I think you guys just doesn't want people to prod.


But when the people you guys seek to share your burden with came to me with your problems, what does that makes me feel? You bunch of 'adults' don't trust me enough? Fuck that, like seriously fuck that. _|_(OAO)_|_


What does that shows huh? Let me tell you. It simply shows:
A) They're tired of your emo-ing because you never change/understand.
B) They've no fucking idea how to fucking cheer you up.
C) They're seriously too fucking busy to be entertaining you.
D) That you seriously holds too much fucking pride that you look down on me just because I'm younger.


You see, I'll be a good guy today and shall educate you 'lesser adults' on why do people you go to come to me.
1) I am awesome.
2) I am trustworthy.
3) My words heal wounds just like how Jesus does his miracles.


I'm kidding. The real answer's here.
4) Because YOU, the problem 'adult', never learn from your mistakes despite hitting the wall gazillion times.


Not forgetting the fact that,
5) Because YOU, thinks that "Oh, a girl would probably be able to cheer me up more."
6) Because YOU, thinks that "You? Fuck off, you're just a kid who knows nothing."
7) Because YOU, thinks that "That kid will just look down on me when I approach him for help."
8) Because YOU, thinks that "Better not, later he start asking for favors just because I've gotten his help.


...Seriously, you think I would not think what you thinkers are thinking? Your pride... YOUR MOTHERFUCKING PRIDE. Just fucking throw them out of the window, you DON'T NEED so much pride! TOO MUCH PRIDE KILLS YOU LITTLE PIECE OF SHITTY ADULTS.


GAH. The real problem is here on no.4, think about it AND I don't think I need to fucking explain that I won't do no.7 and no.8 either. Regarding to why people you trust approach me, the reason is simple. The answer is A,B, and C with no.1,2,3 and 4.

Also... Because they know I trust you and they trust me. But you on the other hand, doesn't know where to place your trust.

Fucking retards. Behave like a fucking adult that you're suppose to be.


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End of rant. Now, I seriously need sleep or I won't make it there on time. If I fail my BTE, I'll rant with a more wonderful selection of beautiful English vulgarities. 

Nights.

Mahjong.

Had a great mahjong session today!
Love it though I didn't really play much. LOL. It was always Hong Wei, Zhi Hao, Chan Yee and Ke Min. They are the one addicted to Mahjong!!!

Ying Ying and Wei Zhong were here too, but left early. The other 4 stayed to finish their game.
End up all 3 boys lose to Ke Min!!! Shocked. Because Zhi Hao is suppose to be the pro and best of the best among us. Hahaha!


Nothing much, but I learnt a lot of things with after meeting Henry.
he knows a lot of things and frankly speaking, my knowledge about anything is peanuts compared to his! Glad was able to meet him!


I shall stop here today, a fast one. Tired.
Later people~

Thinking.

I've been doing some thinking on my own.


It dawn to me that all I really wanted is to help people, but in the process of doing so, I take no heed to my needs and wants. This in turn leads me off the track I am suppose to move on.

Since my encounter with a dear friend of mine, I embark on an impossible quest of chivalry and honor in this era, only to realize now that sometimes, the 36 Stratagems can get things done quick and clean - and I mean really clean. We don't have people who upholds such traits anymore. The men-in-blues uphold only the law, but in reality, they just slack around and write report then dump them one side. The SPF have shown us very clearly that unless you're someone big - and I mean really BIG, you can forget about any service from them.


The society is much harsher and underhanded in the sense that, backstabbing is now literally a frontal assault. Since it has all come down to this, why try be a knight-in-shining-armor and being made use by girls over and over again? Well, not only them actually but the society as well.


I am very much like Cao Cao in the sense that we both had no tolerance to betrayal.
Just that he have the power to execute people and I don't - I mean I can't, I lack the proper finance to do it cleanly. Anyone can do it, seriously. It's a piece of cake.


Till now, all my neglected needs and wants turned on me. I lost sight of what is important for ME. Lost sight of my vision and goals, lost sight of me, myself and I. I neglected myself too much, probably for the sake of others. I spend hours talking to people, consoling them and taking on their burdens, hoping to relieve them - which is successful because they felt relieve and great afterwards but hey! I don't. I indulge deeper, breaking up the problems into what causes them and why, like a mind-map.


It just happen. I've never realized what got me so interested in such issues. Never realized what make me wants to solve this puzzle and then break it apart again to further understand it.


I need some time for myself.
It really did become apparent that by helping others, I did not do myself a favor.
I am only being used, then toss aside once I 'expires'.
I need to pay more attention to my needs and wants.


To be honest, I am very tempted to go after you girl, all these while you've chosen the wrong men to go with and they betray you, thus hurts you deeply, these are feelings I understand. If I ever did stand any chances, it would be years back in those good o' secondary school days. 
I ain't the kind of guy you like. Back then, I'm always waiting for you to see the right guy in me - something you probably never did and now, I'm simply tired. You already projects the feeling that you would come to me only when you needed something. Maybe you do so sub-consciously but only you would know that...


I'm all smiley and cheerful and all, but in reality...
I'm tired. The word FUBAR in German and American terms is such an understatement to what I am going through right now. I'm just... tired of it all. Relationships won't work out for me and I am pretty sick of it already, to go through the same ending all the time. I know there are times my methods are wrong, sometimes I were simply desperate. All these, after much analyzing and research, were caused by the fact I'm too selfless to the extent I forgo my needs and wants.


Only now do I understand the true meaning behind this phrase - "it takes someone selfish to be selfless." My recent activities with the Gekiken group have kinda leave some mark on simply how far I fell from where I was back then. There was never a rise, only a fall. My best days were still in my secondary school life, one you were part of. The day when I was introduced to you, the day we went out together and many more. Those days, you made me smile genuinely but now, that feeling's long gone.


I just ain't who I used to be.
I no longer smile the smile you loves.
I no longer laugh the laugh you loves.


Sorry. Throughout our long periods of radio-silence and a series of short burst communications, that Gary you knew, died on September 2010.

CNY FUN~!!!

Oh crumpets~!!! I am enjoying my life too much to the extent I forgot about blog!
Sorry, really really really sorry to my fellow friends, relatives, family, girlfriends, wifes, scandals! (and in case you dont know, it's just a joke)


This year is on a different outlook I guess.
I never bought any new outfits to celebrate CNY. I am simply broke and even when my mum did gave me $50 bucks to get something, I rather keep it and get the glasses I need for my National Service.


Ang Pao, even when I just hold it, I know I ain't gonna get much this year. I won't even expect an above 90 mark. probably I just gonna get like, 60++ or 80++. Well, I guess that's pretty much better. I  seriously need that money for the new glasses!!! Probably some contact lens so I may seduce sparkle people. :)


Remember the previous post I talk about having a bad dream?
Well, I'm back to tell the story.


It happened somewhere in the near future, when I was serving in the Navy. The Frigate I'm in, RSS Stalwart, was caught in the middle of an electromagnetic storm in the middle of the pacific ocean and BEHOLD, the sea splits and out comes giant walking mechas and slow flying humongous flying fortresses! The unknowns identify themselves to us as 'Watchmen' and destroys one of our ship in the fleet! The whole place was throw into panic and the captain immediately demands the whole fleet to retreat! Our ship were to be the rear guard. We fire our cannons and missiles, but they don't even scratch them! Finally, the sky fortress closest to us open it's frontal mouth and shot a pinpoint greenish beam and obliterate us! I manage to escape by jumping into the sea on time! Was hurl up by the Watchmen and brought forward to their king! BEHOLD.


Their king...


Looks like me. D:

That's where the dreams end. LOL!!!
I need to wake up at 9am tomorrow. I shall retire to my royal bed to get some royal slumber. NIGHTS.